Last Week

Last week I went to another CFD workout. It was fun. :)

WOD:
AMRAP in 12 minutes
3 cleans
6 pull ups
9 box jumps

I wanted to do this workout because I have been dying to do pull ups for a while. :) I know....me want to do pull ups? Sounds crazy right? But I wanted to see what I could do. I ended up just doing the bar for the cleans. Legs were still weak from the previous two workouts. It was still challenging for me in the later rounds. I did the green band for the pull ups. And surprisingly, I was doing well at them. I managed to do most of them chest to bar. I could probably do a smaller band for a few of the pull ups, but not for the entire workout. And for the box jumps, I did the 12 inch box. I ended up doing step ups. I could do one or two actually jumping, but visions of Sandy falling over the box kept coming into my head. So I just did step ups.

I managed to do 6 full rounds, and finished my 3 cleans. Not too shabby for coming back. I hope to be able to do this workout again.

Now Phoenix and I are trying to figure out how I am going to pay/go to Crossfit. It still may have to wait until school is out, but I am glad that I got a taste back.

It's Been A Long Time Coming!

Well my friends, I finally got to do a couple of Crossfit WODs. And let's just say.....I'm exhausted. Friday night, Phoenix had to work late. So I decided that I was not going to sit at home and wait for him. So I texted Mel, and decided to go for Friday's night class.

WOD:
3 rounds for time:
3 Power Cleans
3 Front Squats
3 Deadlifts
50 Double Unders

I knew going into this that it was not going to be the prettiest workout. Squats (especially Front squats) have been a weakness of mine. Power cleans and deadlifts I was not worried about. I ended up using 52# for the lifts. I know that I could have done more on the power cleans and deadlifts, but stupid front squats. I looked back, and 2 years ago I could do 100# on front squat, and now....half that. Kind of depressing. I had to substitute 2x for the double unders, but I finished in a decent time of 5:47. I didn't have to do any burpee penalties because I didn't let go of the bar. I was determined not to!

Saturday comes, and I am sore. It was a struggle to get out of bed. But I did. This workout was not fun. I did enjoy Friday's workout, but today. Ug. I really really did not like it at all. It wasn't that bad. I just came close to throwing up several times. And my legs were like jello.

WOD:
In 12 minutes with a partner (completing everything together with no separating out reps)
30 air squats
100m shuttle run
15 push ups
100m shuttle run

My partner and I were only able to complete 3 full sets.

Reading it, it isn't a difficult workout. I was having so many problems with the squats, and then combined with the extreme nausea....it just wasn't happening. :( I had to scale back the squats to 15 during my last set. I am sure that 98% of this was mental, but I just couldn't get it together.


After examining these past two workouts, I am left with conflicting emotions. I missed the training so much, but I feel like I am back at square one. True, I haven't been training in two years, but still is hard to see how much I have regressed. I hate feeling like the worst, and I am surrounded by all these women who are so much tinier than I am, and I feel like the fat kid back in elementary school. I have to keep reminding myself that I lost over 30 pounds over a year ago, and have kept every bit of that off. But I feel like I am at a crossroads. I want so much to come back, but I feel like I have no self confidence in myself. I truly hate not being good at something, and well....I am right back to where I started. And all my CF friends remember how good I used to be, and where I am now is no where near where I was back then. I feel that when I start coming back there will be added pressure on me to preform to where I was, not where I am now. I am just so conflicted. I want to go, but absolutely hate scaling back reps and weight because it makes me feel not good enough. Again, I know this is all mental, but it is hard to get through those emotions. And on top of everything else I have going on, it just seems like too much and I don't know what to do or where to go. :(

Happy New Year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Hope that everyone had a great holiday! I have been working a lot and just enjoying being home with Phoenix. I worked on Christmas (by choice) and then we went to my parent's house the day after. We had a great lunch with my parents and met my mom's cousin from Michigan. He is a traveling nurse and just happens to be working at my hospital in a different unit. He seems nice, but was obviously uncomfortable when he found out that Phoenix was carrying his hand gun. Oh well.

I didn't expect anything from Phoenix since he doesn't really celebrate this holiday, but he surprised me. A few days after Christmas, I came home from work and there was a gift card to the App Store, which didn't make sense because I don't have an iPhone. So, I opened the card.....


Now, the phone is freaking amazing and I am trying to figure out how I EVER survived without it. LOL. But for me, the real present was just the fact that he called me the "Love of his Life". It is so amazing to have someone tell you that. :)

New Year's was quiet. We just had a nice dinner out and then came home and enjoyed the time just us. Would have been nice to have seen some friends, but he's my best friend, so I wouldn't have had it any other way.

It is less than 2 weeks before I begin my FINAL semester of nursing school! Ah! I am almost done with this hell that I have been in for the past 2 years. We can't wait!

I hope that everyone has had a great Holiday! And it is time to get back into the swing of things! It sounds like 2011 is going to be a great year!

Hiya!

Hi there! I have missed you guys! Is the semester over yet for a reunion? Clinicals are going. I am bored in the most of the time. But, I guess that is the problem with having experience going into a field like this.

This past weekend, we went to a wedding. We had a pretty good time. The wedding was nice, just some things that we both agreed there were a lot of things that we would change. I included a couple of pics. :)



And I absolutely loved my dress! Phoenix picked it out. Wasn't the original one we picked out that was all black with lots of "bling" on it, but this one was just as gorgeous! I told him that since we have this nice fancy dress, that he has to find places for me to wear it! :)

Hope everyone is doing well! 206 more days until graduation!!!!! (Had to put that in there!)

Name that rhythm!

Hey guys! Sorry for the lack of updating, but as you all know, school is hard work! I have studied more than I have in a long time. But I am actually keeping up with the work! I think that I am going to enjoy this semester.

Something that is not being enjoyable about the semester is the girl I carpool with. We have grown apart since last semester. Problem is, she was my support system when I didn't have Phoenix, but he has become my support system now, and that kind of leaves her out of the picture. I have also discovered that we have pretty much nothing in common besides school. There are so many things that our viewpoints are so totally different, and not that that is a problem, but she doesn't even consider my viewpoint. It has gotten to where even talking about grocery shopping is stressful! I am so looking forward to moving so I don't have to carpool with her. And yes, I could just not carpool with her, but it saves me gas money every other week. So, worth it for the financial part, but not for the stressful part. :( I just don't know what to do. We even differ on parts of school. Thing is, I don't think she realizes how it stresses me (which is a good thing since we sit next to each other). It's just frustrating.

This week is my first test in Adult II, so hopefully it will go well. I have been studying like crazy for it, so I feel like I am prepared. We shall see! I hope everyone is doing well, and I miss you guys!

I Miss My Life

Well...it is that time again! The beginning of a new semester! I have 3 clinicals this semester. Pediatrics, Adult II (Focus on critical care), and crazy people (AKA mental health). It will be an interesting semester. People are already complaining about this and that. I am not thrilled about some things that are going to happen this semester, but nothing I can do about it. I am going to TRY not to complain...that much. So far, I have managed to stay on top of things. Even though I have a 3 day weekend, I am going to spend as much as I can doing some school work. Maybe I will even take my books to the pool to study. :)

I have my pediatric clinical at Scottish Rite. Adult at Parkland. Psych at Millwood (which is all the way in ARLINGTON! UGH!)

I am actually really happy about the clinical at Parkland. Our instructor is giving us a TON of freedom! I am able to go into a patient's room and give them medication without him or a nurse present. That is a big deal! Granted, we have to fulfill other requirements too, but still, yay for autonomy!

Since I have a Saturday clinical....ick right?....I won't be able to attend the free Crossfit WOD's. :( This really has me sad, because I was looking forward to it. But, what am I to do? Have to get through school. I will probably start my elliptical work beginning this weekend. Need to have notes to read before I can do it!

Hope to see you guys sometime!

VACAY!

Since I am in triage doing nothing....I figured I would update you with my vacation! :)

Friday, we went to Turner Falls in Davis, Oklahoma. It was so pretty there! We went hiking and then played in the Falls. I liked trying to find the cave. There were two ways to get in. One by crawling on your abdomen or going down rocks. I chose the rock way. I did not feel like getting covered in dirt, especially when I was already covered in sweat. I was very proud of Phoenix. He does not like going in water where he can't see the floor or he doesn't know what is in the water. So, I was very proud that he went in the water. He is never going to let me live in down that he did that, but that's ok. :) Oh, and there was this GIGANTIC hill that we had to climb to begin looking for the cave. Yeah....it was not the easiest one, but since we are crossfitters...well, it still sucked, but it was manageable!

After we left Turner Falls, we went to the town of Duncan (this is the closest place that had a hotel chain where we were able to get a free night). We went to this bistro called Peyton's Place, which the food was not very good. Phoenix found a hair in his food! Gross! We had planned for this to have been a fun date night......but as it turns out, there is NOTHING to do in Duncan! So, we decided to go to Wal-Mart, buy a movie and ice cream, and have date night in our hotel room. We ended up getting IRobot. Turned out to be a pretty decent movie! Ok, well, there was something to do in Duncan. We could have gone to the Casino, but I just bought a cute new shirt, and we didn't want to leave there smelling like smoke.

Saturday, we went to Wynnewood to go to the Exotic Animal Memorial Park! This was sooo much fun! It is kind of like a zoo, but they rescue animals. They have over 1400 big cats there! Some have been rescued from circuses, zoos, or other animal sanctuaries. We were able to walk around and look at everything. We paid the extra bit to go back to the back for a personal tour. At the end of the tour, we got to play with a baby tiger!!! Six (tiger's name) is 18 days old! He was the cutest thing ever! I did not want to let him down! We got to play with him for about 30 minutes and take pictures! Cubs can only be handled by direct human contact until they are about 12 weeks old. After that, they aren't supposed to be treated like "pets" and you aren't allowed to touch them. (Or at least that is what our tour guide said!)

It was such a great first vacation! I look forward to many more!