Monday, June 29, 2009

Lubb Dubb

Starting week 4 of summer school. Ug...I am so exhausted. I honestly don't remember being this mentally tired. I am so ready for a break. Sunday can't get here soon enough for the Vans Warped Tour! :)

But anyways, the test today was hard, not as hard as the Neuro test, but still hard. Ending up making an 86. Thought I did better than that, but oh well. I will take it and not be picky. I don't have the energy to be upset. Already read the chapter that we covered today, and will soon start on tomorrow's chapters once I finish this blog.

I wish to digress for a minute and share an experience I had last week. So, a "friend" owed me some money from when we out a couple of times. Now, I am not talking like $20, I am saying more like $200. He didn't have a job, and we wanted to go out, so we went out and I picked up the tabs. Not that that is a big deal, but when someone spends $200 on alcohol...I don't make much being a scribe. He reassured me that he would pay me back, so I didn't think too much of it. So, I asked him for the money (it has been 6 months since we out). Well, that started a HUGE fight. He decided that he wanted to attack me. Which is fine. I can handle myself. I found it rather humorous actually. I was called, and I quote: "socio-pathic narcissist", "condescending bitch", immature, someone who is only book smart and will never amount to anything, and someone who has "daddy issues" (somehow me taking a pole dancing class means I have daddy issues). Whatever, that's fine. Bring it on. I never really tried to attack him. I did mention that it is not my fault that my mother is paying for my college. To which he replied that his parents would have but he didn't want to mooch off them like I was. I did say that "sorry you weren't smarter and let them pay for it". Apparently, that meant that I called him stupid. Oh well.

The ONE thing that pissed me off the VERY most was when he said, and again I quote because I am "not smart enough" to make this up, that "Nurses are only people who are not smart enough to become doctors". WOW. I know tons of nurses that are brilliant. What he doesn't know is that the nurse spends more time than the doctor ever will with the patient. It is the nurse who makes sure that things go right. Yes, the doctor may order the medications, but is he the one who makes sure that the patient doesn't stop breathing from an adverse reaction to the drug? He doesn't do the titers to make sure that the patient doesn't go into volume overload. Just things to think about the next time you are in a hospital. If you want to get on bad side, say something like that and see if I don't reach across the table and smack the shit out of you...

Ok, so I do think I am smart enough to become a doctor or a PA. I didn't get in. Instead of trying again and shelling out tons of money for application fees, I applied to ONE nursing school and got in. 2 days before I took my GRE (for PA school applications) I buried my grandfather and wasn't in the best states of minds before my test. I did pass, but only did OK. So, that's probably the reason I didn't get into PA school. But I am happy with where I am at in my life right now. I don't regret a single thing I've done. I am where I am supposed to be and doing what I am supposed to be doing at this point in my life.

Needless to say, we are not friends anymore, and I am not getting my money back. Oh well. Nice to know that that malignant cancer is out of my life. However, if he does step into my ER, I will make sure to get the biggest needle and find the smallest vein I can, and have fun poking his arm. :)


  1. hahaha..ok, that last part made me laugh :) I miss you, girl!

    Take it from someone who has been in the hospital at least one day per month for her entire life..the nurses make ALLLL the difference. They make it or break it for me everytime. If they don't know what they're doing, don't care, or just want to get out of there, it really shows and it makes things so difficult. I routinely get 3 or 4 needle sticks just b/c someone thinks they can do it or is in a hurry instead of listening to me. But when I am lucky enough to come across that one that really does care, knows what she's talking about, and goes a little out of her way, it makes things so much better and I don't curse being there the whole time. I KNOW that you will be one of those amazing nurses! Oh, and I am smart and all, but there's no way I could ever be a nurse. I think about that everytime I'm there as well. The patience, kindness, diligence, and quick thinking are things you cannot get from a text book.

    Anyways, I'm sorry you had such a bad experience with your ex-friend :-/ Glad you ranted about it. Hopefully you feel ok about it now? And, I propose going out for expensive drinks, on me, when you finish this maddness!

  2. Thanks Sandy. It does feel good getting it off my chest. It just sucks that I know that he is not the only person who thinks that about nurses. Yes, we do have to do a lot of the crap work (literally and figuratively). But I think we do make a difference. Thank you for your continued support through this time. Knowing that I have you guys to rant to, helps with the stress.

    And I am totally down for drinks!